Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Something to say every fifteen minutes!

Shortly after my fist blog publication I sat down at my computer for my daily email deleting session.  Amidst the junk, with my finger poised on delete, the email I had been waiting for arrives.    I realized I have something to say about something every fifteen minutes or so and that if I had waited only a minute or two I would have found something to talk about.  I would have had a juicier first blog.  

The email that came was about the acceptance of my work into a show I was hoping for. Not a show, show,  Like craft show... But a SHOW SHOW, like an exhibit. At a museum.  Like the real deal.

Suddenly, one little email changed everything.  I called my Bestie.  Texted my brother,  and from that moment on…….. with the clock ticking,  I’m thinking about nothing but this Museum.  I'm thinking about what it means to create and serve up something museum worthy. My ho hum attitude about bead blogging is replaced by excitement, joy and a real sense of something to talk about.

Having something to talk about does not mean tooting my horn.  I’m not big on tooting.  It's about creating on a schedule and making it happen.  Its about making things happen when it's hard to make things happen.

Now, while I have good news on the table:  The exhibition........I have truth on the table also: Limitations.  This is about revealing challenges that far exceed ones abilities.  It's about my struggle to create when I have challenges that are difficult to over come.  It is hopefully the beginning of a discussion about overcoming obstacles and making art.

Before I dump my reality onto you I want to reiterate that this is not me presenting some sort of drama nor is this a “whoa is me".  This is about how one adapts to changes.  These are my personal challenges, yes but,  I  want to raise awareness amongst us about the challenges artists face.  Not just my challenges.......but all of our challenges.  What I want to explore is what  its like to be committed to artistic excellence when I can’t see what I am doing. (literally) and what I want to explore is what goes on for you that get’s in the way of your artistic excellence. I want to hear about what you face and build up community about this. 

So without further ado, I reveal what very few of you know:   I can rarely concentrate. my greatest obstacle:  I am clinically diagnosed  as having Attention Deficit  aka A.D.H.D. (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) which get’s in the way of staying on task, focus, organization and other fine important things needed when trying to get a job done.  This distractibility is not garden variety.  It is ever present and debilitating.

The Second obstacle being Diagnosed with Fuchs Corneal Dystrophy, a rare eye disease, that leads to blindness and is well on it’s way to doing so to me.

Now I could sit here listing plenty of other problems that limit me.  But that is not the point.  The point is we are all evolving all the time.  That our situations change and that we adapt because we have to adapt.

So I leave you with this thought:  I am the Blind Beader with zero attention span and  I am exploring how to make art with challenges like these. What your obstacles are, are,  most likely way different than mine. I start here by revealing what is getting in my way in hopes it can lead us into an open discussion about creating under pressure, with obstacles. 

1 comment:

  1. Big big hugs to you my soul sister, let yourself shine through even if you don't see your light that much we can see it and it is blinding.